The last couple weeks there have been different things that I had been meaning to post about. It is funny how all those things like what the kids say, and how the basement is progressing just don't seem to matter when something truly horrible happens in your family. I have been putting this post off for days now, I just feel it is too terrible to write. And, even as I am writing this, I am not sure how best to say it and hope my words come out okay. But this little guy is apart of me now, my family, and of course his sweet parents, and I do want to honor him.As most of you have read on my blog before, my little sister Erin was pregnant with a little boy as well, and was due a few months before me. This was Erin's first child, and everyone was so excited about his arrival. Well, little Henry Robert Koelliker decided to make his appearance on Tuesday, February 9th. There were a few complications and Henry was sent immediately to the NICU. He was such a beautiful baby, and I think we all couldn't wait to hold him. However, after almost a full week in the NICU, and with heavy hearts Erin and her husband Rob held him as he passed away.
I cannot begin to express how terrible it was. To be there when they came back in the room, telling us that he was gone. To see their pain and grief. The last few days I have thought of nothing else. And, as excited as I have been about my own baby, it hurts to realize that his buddy will not be there now, playing on the floor with him, not to mention the pain that seeing my baby would understandably bring to Erin and Rob. I just feel terrible, I don't know how else to describe it. My heart aches for Erin and Rob and I wish they didn't have to go through this.
I do believe however, that as hard as it is to see Henry go, he must have been a extra special spirit to be given the chance to skip this world of sorrow. I know that I will get to meet him on the other side, and I am looking forward to getting to know him, and to see all the great qualities that he must possess, firsthand. Thank goodness for the gospel, for the knowledge that families are eternal. So that we can try to take comfort in the fact that Henry is alive and well and waiting for us to join him someday.
7 comments:
My heart aches for Erin, Rob and your family. What a terrible thing to have to go through. You will all be in our prayers. Henry is a very handsome little boy, and is so blessed to be apart of your wonderful family.
I am sitting here crying as I am writing this. Just having had Kenidi I can't even imagine going through that. My best friend had a baby a week before me and my mom just told me that they just found out that it has Spinal Bifida. I have been concerned now that it will be hard for her to be around Kenidi, but that doesn't even compare to this. I am so sorry for the loss and that the birth of your son will now be difficult when it should be a joyous occasion.
You move us all to tears. I am so thankful for the gospel in our lives. This will be such a hard trial in your family's life and I am so sorry. I cannot even imagine. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I pray that Erin and Rob will be able to heal and be able to have the chance to bring another choice and sweet spirit into this world and be able to raise them. Words really cannot express. Thoughts and prayers are with you!
I am so sorry for your loss. Truly, my heart goes out to your whole family.
Beanie, thanks for the post. I'm sure that it broke your heart to write it but it was beautiful and meant so much to Rob, Henry, and me. We love you and your entire family and couldn't do this without your prayers, faith, and support. Thank you for paying tribute to our son. We love you.
I'm so sorry for your loss Sara and especially sorry for your sister and her husband's loss. This brought tears to my eyes. I will keep you in my prayers!!!
Sara....You are so sweet and such a great Auntie. I can't imagine what your sister & brother-n-law are going through, but I love how close your family is and I know that will get them through. We are praying for your family....
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